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Hi babyboy, this post is specially for you. Sorry for being too paranoid these days alrights? I think you would have guess why i couldn't sleep early these few nights and i have been calling you at around midnight time. I don't know what's wrong in our relationship. Maybe the fault lies with me, i can't trust people easily. I trusted you fully, i once did. But you and i know that the trust given was broken and it can't be replaced anymore yeah? I hate it. Really.
We went through alot these 1year plus, more than anyone would even know. We went through it altogether. There were problems in our relationship, cracks in it. And i have something to confess, till now the cracks are still there. I just can't seem to seal it up. I know i harp on the past sometimes way too much. Nobody like their past to be brought up. But the pain is still there for me, things still linger around my mind. It seems that they are haunting me.
I know you really badly wanted to go there today. I thought of letting you go, but i know it would hurt me deep down. I would think about all the things you have done and whether you would repeat what has happened. I had second thoughts about letting you go, letting you do what you want. You gave in, i know you were unhappy. It hurt me to see you upset and act as if you're alright.. But i was selfish. I didn't want to suffer the pain a second time. Sorry...
Change me back to who i was baby, the one who trust you. It's gonna be difficult. I really hope we can be happy, forever. Is that possible? I asked you this once, you said yes. Without trust in any relationship, the relationship gonna suffer. However, it's difficult for me to trust when i have been hurt once. Everything's tying you down i know i know... Give me time, i still love you as much as before, we will work on this together alrights. Babyboy, smile k? ♥
